Ugh

Don't you ever just feel burnt out..those times where you are just out of it..this past weekend/week was just super emotionally draining and rough. Along side of a crazy amount of schoolwork I just started training again for cycling. I got really frustrated with homework, sore from riding, and just felt down. Right now I want more than anything to be done with finals and just get finished with the semester, don't get me wrong this has been another amazing semster but I am just beyond done with it...I am no mood to study, I've been slacking on so many things, I feel like my quiet times and walk has just been no existant and ya I don't feel that happy..Everything from Ultimate frisbee to movies to hanging out just feels ugh...and I hate it..mainly because i am so hyper & energetic it just is so weird when I'm not. Then what kills me is when others get down because they always count of me to be funny, lively, and just down right goofy. I feel like I've just not had as much fun. I've been grumpier to my roommates, less out-going, and just not on the right track..I don't understand. How does this happen??? I sometimes wish you could just push the easy button or pause on life. Maybe its because I just want things to slow down..time just goes by quicker and quicker. It could be also my childhood house is about to be sold and I am just unsure about whats up ahead. Its hard not knowing what the future is going to be like..I get nervous and afraid things won't be ok. Even though I have doubts and fears I really just need to look to God right now for peace..If you see me around say hi, because I just feel out of it. I guess I could say this has been a "dry-spell" for me spiritually just because i don't feel I've gotten anywhere. Lately when I've been reading the word or just praying I don't even feel like God is close to me..even though in my head I know He is right there. It seems like a can't hear him...but God brought me to this desert for some reason so I just pray that before he brings me out of the desert I can understand why he brought me here in the first place. I am not too worried though in a couple days I should be back to my bouncy self just right now I FEEL SO UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

To whom it may concern

Dear Friend,

I know I should've wrote sooner but I got busy, side-tracked, was scared, and nervous about what I have to tell you...It's a life or death matter..but don't be afraid I'm alright but I am writing to make sure you will be ok. To quote some lyrics from one of my favorite songs:

"In case you didnt know theres a lovin that will never go away
you say your goin to hell but it dont have to be that way
see the bottom line of what im tryin to say is
god puts back the broken peaces
that are were thrown away

If even everyone you know
just up and goes away
he'll still love you till the very day
that your of that old and gray
to bad alot of Christians all they do is hate on you
instead of dropen it there knees
and taken time to pray for you

see what i say to you i know it might even sound funny
but i never came at you just to paint you has the enemy
it wasn't about haten or spunten some controversy
it wasn't about blamen you or tryn to make some money na
i dont claim to know everything that youv experienced
man i dont even know if even ever be hearen this
but i said it once and i still hold it is that a life with out Christ is still a life that is never fixed


Jesus gave me more than i ever could of been expected
i know life is hectic it can leave you blowin away
but check it bro cause we just gonna die someday
and on that note well theres only one thing still left to say
theres still one love and one god and only one way"

I could never forgive myself if I never told you..but as you read search your heart & listen to what I have to tell you

Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins.. you might think I'm crazy or you may laugh but it's not a joke or something made up..He came to pay the penalty for us..Romans 3:23 says "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" ..Yes, everyone, even me. Our sin is what seperates us from God and condemns us BUT
he carried our sins to the cross, died, and rose again three days later..now we can have life. John 3:16-17" 16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him." God loves you..he always has..he loves you so much he sent his son to die so he wouldn't have to spend eternity without you..I am writing to you as a dear friend, I have experienced in my life peace, true satisfaction, joy because of Jesus...and If I were to die today I know with all my heart I would be in Heaven with him.I wish I could make this choice for you but we each must choose..Ephesians 2:8-9
says "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast." It is a free gift we can't do anything to earn it all you have to do is ask Jesus into your heart..to be your Saviour Romans 10:9
That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

I write this not to judge you or to hurt you but because I care for you...I don't ever want to recieve a letter like this from you

My friend, I stand in judgement now
And feel that you're to blame somehow
On Earth I walked with you day by day
And never did you point the way
You knew the Lord in truth and glory
But never did you tell the story
My knowledge then was very dim
You could have led me safe to Him
Though we lived together here on Earth
You never told me of the second birth
And now I stand condemmed
Because you failed to mention Him
You taught me many things, that's true
I called you "friend" and trusted you
But I learn that now it's too late
And you could have kept me from this fate
We walked by day and talked by night
And yet you showed me not the light
You let me live, and die
You knew I'd never live on high
Yes I called you friend in life
and trusted you through joy and strife
and, yet, on coming to this dreadful end,
I cannot now call you friend.............






To whom it may concerned..I hope one day to see you in heaven....you are LOVED..Jesus loves you

Funny French Prank

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wOur8qXvpnk

Ok so this is what happens when the Tour de France is not taking place in France this one is good.

Stayin Alive

We stop playing because we grow old, but we grow old because we stop playing....

Spring 2010 schedule

SPCM 200-015 - Public Speaking
10:00AM - 10:50AM | M W F | Eddy 117 | Jan. 19 - May. 09



BMS 300-001 - Principles of Human Physiology
11:00AM - 11:50AM | M W R F | Plant Science C 101 | Jan. 19 - May. 09



POLS 131-001 - Current World Problems
12:30PM - 1:45PM | T R | Engineering 100 | Jan. 19 - May. 09


ACT 205-003 - Fundamentals of Accounting
8:00AM - 8:50AM | M W F | Eddy 100 | Jan. 19 - May. 09

Quote of the week

"Courage is almost a contradiction in terms. It means a strong desire to live taking the form of a readiness to die. 'He that will lose his life, the same shall save it,' is not a piece of mysticism for saints and heroes. It is a piece of everyday advice for sailors or mountaineers. It might be printed in an Alpine guide -- or a drill-book. This paradox is the whole principle of courage even of quite earthly or quite brutal courage. A man cut off by the sea may save his life if he will risk it on the precipice. He can only get away from death by continually stepping within an inch of it. A soldier, surrounded by enemies, if he is to cut his way out, needs to combine a strong desire for living with a strange carelessness about dying. He must not merely cling to life, for then he will be a coward, and will not escape. He must not merely wait for death, for then he will be a suicide, and will not escape. He must seek his life in a spirit of furious indifference to it; he must desire life like water and yet drink death like wine." - GK Chesterton

If you've never failed you've never lived

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RmTxr7OsPj0

Friends

I am would not be here today without you...yes you my friend. I wanted to take the time to say thank you..for never giving up on me even when I gave up on myself, for making me laugh, for celebrating my victories, for lifting my head up after my defeats... for being there, for love, for caring more about my heart than my looks or clothes or money or anything... 1 Thessalonians 2:19-20 "For What is our hope, our joy, or the crown in which we will glory in the presence of our Lord Jesus when he comes? Is it not you? Indeed, you are our glory and joy." You are my joy...my life ..I never really had many friends...During high school I went days without talking to people,kids at my school hated me. They harrassed me and made me feel worthless and a failure who would never amount to anything. Ididn't have one true friend that went to my high school..Life was hard and I thought about giving in..By God didn't let me..I spent alot of nights wondering if there were any people out their that could be my friends..I spent alot of nights crying alone just praying for the days I would get to have friends...and....I....finally found them.. I ..found you..Dan Boryla you were the first person at CSU to say hi to me..and now you are like my big brother, Lane we were always and will always be best friends words can't describe what it has meant so share life with you, Taylor Barnes I didn't even know you and now you are my other best friend and I have never looked back since we met, Davis you taught me how to remember to not be so hard on myself and that laughing is the best medicine, Peter Frost showed me what pure joy can come from following God, Sean we will always be dance buddies, Andy you helped me see the importance of God's word & prayer, Dan Schimtty you have taught me how to be a man of God, Kelsey you always bring a smile to my face with your bubbly personality, CJ I've known you along time but you are one of the coolest & most godly guys I know, Bruce we became so close and we always be friends, Jenni you taught me its ok to be me, Jake you taught me how to be a better leader..and how to go deep with God, and I wish I could name everyone but it would take forever because each of you has changed my life...I smile because of you..no one used to even want to say hi to me...so Thank You it means the world to me having friends like you..God was so loving he blessed me beyond the stars with you..so from my heart Thank You for being my friend

Me!

Do you remember back when you were a kid? When life was just so simple and you just cared about having fun..Isn't it funny how we rush to grow up because being a kid just isn't the same or its immature or childish and once we're grown up we long to be children again. People live as if they never will die and die as though they never lived. I like to be silly, goofy, and spontaneous.. I like to watch disney movies and yes sing along to every song, I dont like school and its not because I am lazy or don't care about, I love Ice Cream, I like to dance like no one's watching when most the time they are, I sing not well but does it really matter, I like riding my bike, I wish we would still do sleepovers..or all nighters, I enjoy tepeeing, I wear scooby-doo slippers, I dont like wine or alcohol its gross I prefer Strawberry or Chocolate milk, I get nervous around girls, I like to dress up for Halloween, , My Mom is one of my best friends, I hate spiders and I won't kill them, I love blasting music, I like skate city, I love making movies even if they if they dont win an oscar, Slip N Slides rock, I love the zoo and feeding the giraffes, I like Star Wars and its music, I race my shopping carts at grocery stores, I like laughing, I don't like drama or when people just work work work work and don't remember to take a break and relax, I pretend to be Batman sometimes or Spiderman if Mary Jane is around, Dodgeball is way to sweet, :), I did like NSync, Michael Jackson is stellar, I love making snow angels or playing hide and seek in the library...people often think I'm weird or a little crazy but im not afraid to be me...because its not embarrassing if you don't care what people think...(Matthew 18:3)

How would you introduce God?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WXmSHVoi7rI

I think if you take the time to answer this question it will blow your socks off because you'll
begin to realize just how amazing God is......How would you introduce God?

Inspirational Story

What a cool story!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GQ4xsn0d_I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ugbq3kLDWKI

Treasure Hunt

Jesus Christ is the greatest treasure a man could hope to find. But do we search & seek after him like a precious jewel or buried treasure? If you have ever lost your wallet or phone what did you do? Search search search until you found it. Nothing but finding what you lost is on your mind and you can never fully be at peace or content until you have found it. You search everything...I think its time I start to view God as a hidden treasure. To find a buried treasure you use the map...well I believe that map is the bible. I know way to often I just read through a passage of the Bible and then close it up for next time. The Bible is the very word of God and through searching it we can grow closer to him and learn how we can find the hidden prize. If we come closer to God he will come closer to us...Now remember that time you lost something of value..what was it like when you found what you were looking for? For me findind my wallet filled me with pure joy...how much more will we find if we find God the treasure of our lives?? God is love, joy, peace, and everything good. So if we give everything we posses to seek after him when we do it will be pure bliss. He gave himself on the cross because we are precious like jewels to him... can we say the same about him? So what do you say, do you want to go for a treasure hunt?

Going the Distance

Persevere-means to endure in anything undertaken in spite of difficulty, obstacles, discouragment, stress, pain, or the ability to have strength to make it to the end Its finally over, my 2009 racing season has finally come to a close. This season was filled with major let-downs, struggles, discouragement, but underneath it all pure beauty & love. At the beginning of this year I got scared. Scared I couldn't endure what it takes to be an elite cyclist, scared of failing, scared of what people would think if I didn't live up to the high expectations of my season. I was brought back to high school where I got laughed off my baseball team because I messed up in the field. So I quit....I let go of cycling because I cared more about how people viewed me rather than how God looked at me. As much as I tried to let go I couldn't. Something deep down told me to not give up. Finally over the Spring Break Trip with the Navs God took a burden off my me I had been carrying way too long. In the past I was always called a "quiter" and made fun of severly and I took up cycling as a way to get rid of the pain, but it never worked. The more I rode I realized this wound was deep inside my heart. Jesus finally at the time when I needed him the most came and said "You've been carrying this burden for far too long, let me carry it". I can't even described the weight lifting off my shoulders. So I called my mom up and said "Hey mom can we talk" and she asked "about what?" and I starting talking about a whole bunch of nonsense when she said "Taylor just tell me what you want to say" and I said "Mom I coming back to cycling". Now I had a purpose to ride for my King who paid my penalty of sin on the cross. So I began to train but I was already so far behind. I trained trained pushing myself to my limits. At my first race I got dropped and finished almost dead last. Then I continued to finish near the end in the next couple races. This was hard to overcome because I would give everything I had to finish last and then I injured my knee. For a all of June I couldn't ride. I remember crying out to God asking "why?" "why?" and then I crashed through the windshield of a car and should've been killed but was saved by God's angels.Race after race I got dropped no matter how hard I tried. I finally broke down in tears and cried "God I can't do this and not strong enough....I can;t endure this, I have been giving everything and I dont even have a single medal from this season, " ....Man's greatest victory is not in never falling but picking himself up everytime he does..Finally god answered me...he said"I Can Carry You" ...2 Cor 12:8 Jesus reminds us "My power is made perfect in weakness" So I turned to him when I had nothing left to give so I was riding with His Strength instead of mine...and thats when I found him.... It was only after I had endure pain, trials,and had nothing left when I realized everything had come from Him.. In my final race of the season I rode not for men but for my Jesus and with nothing left at the finish line I had my first and only win of the season. This has been a crazy journey...there has been so many times I have been so close to calling it quits but I want to make my dad in heaven proud so I go now to bring him honor through my cycling, I can go the distance...I am never giving up because He is never giving up on me....